Death, and all of its friends.

I went back to my hometown last Tuesday and had the best brief getaway so far. Seeing once 2 year old now grown up and the best blessing was to see my grandmas from both side, healthy and happy. It wasn't long tho, for at 1900hrs(more or less) we got a text from my sister mentioning the death of his boyfriend's mother. It was a painful moment and we decided to pay a visit but had to rather cancel it because the burial is set to be at Terengganu. The next day, we went straight back to Gombak.

Today, at 1734 I received a text message from a friend of mine, his mom died. Death never knew how to rest, that's for sure. It was like the fourth most depressing moment in my life, yes FOURTH. In my head, I started imagining living as him, waking up every day with a bitter taste of loss, losing that one spot that you can cling onto, realizing that there will no longer be a happy Mother's Day, and most of all; living WITHOUT a mom. Death knows no boundaries and death cares nothing about the word 'family'. Death works alone and it causes loneliness, hard fact. I started imagining things, lots of things. Mostly about the possibility of death occurring anytime anywhere. When will I be dead? Everybody dies, so it's a really disturbing question that lingers endlessly in my head.

Nightmares, they did happen to me once in a while. But what nightmare is for me, is totally different from your average ones. I'm not scared at all of ghosts, or anything of that league, I AM PETRIFIED BY THE FACT THAT DEATH EXIST. I used to wake up from bed with wet pillows, caused by many uneasy dreams that involve the death of my many beloved ones. I had once dreamt about the death of my sister, my parents and sometimes my own death. I gotta admit, I'd lost just too many people throughout my life. Imagine hearing the news of your friend's death from an awful road accident, death by a serious fever, and how about losing your brother from a terrible road crash? Or worse still, losing your very own mother whose pregnant and is about close to deliver a baby? An uncle of yours? Friends? These were only the death that I'd suffered through. How about yours? What hurts me the most, is the mentality of our people that take no serious heed of death that happens around them. Be it the death of their own friend, even. And when death comes by to their very house and take away someone they truly love, they started acting all depressed of a sudden and be more depressed when people aren't showing the sympathy that they'd expect. Beat it, you weren't there when they needed you. All you ever did was saying you're sorry and gave away some nice words to soothe them. Karma's a whack, yes. The next time someone lost their loved ones, imagine yourself as them. That would probably put some humanity in you.

Live your life well, or die trying. Al-Fatihah.

itanimulli

I had always been interested in matters involving conspiracies theory and government frauds, but I'm not obsessed. I love to keep the strings loose because the things that we love most may actually break us down in the end, and there is no exception even in this case. So i was reading a great blog that shares the actual origin and histories of Malay, and I was utterly proud to read the facts written in the posts. We were not only warriors of keris and tombak but we were also the feared warriors of Rentaka and Terakol once, but our corrupted government just loves to keep our minds in the hands of monkeys rather than be in the land of the thinking donkeys.

The title for this post is actually the word ILLUMINATI spelled backward. Now what I want you guys to do is write the title of this post into your internet browser and add .us at the end of it. Press enter and tell me what website appears before your very eyes. Don't deny it, please. Coincidence never existed, it's just another word created to make fun of fate and plans. And oh, have you ever tried typing in ILLUMINATI.US? No? You should try it once and a while. 'Cause I'd tried once just now, and I was really shocked because there in my browser was a website with no navigation links or whatsoever but just a sentence in Latin wrote in white, on a black background. How did I know that it was Latin, because I used Google Translate and it was translated to read:


"or so strongly fortified that it is not be taken with money."
Illuminati.us

"nihil tam munitum quod non expugnari pecunia possit."(The original sentence.)

But I was curious and that sentence alone won't please me. I need more. So I reloaded that page in case there will be navigation links the moment the page is reloaded, but I was wrong. The moment I reloaded the page, everything is gone and the '404 error' occurred. I tried for many many times, but I still couldn't reach that page anymore. Here's a snapshot of the page :


Enlighten me, people. Peace, Empathy, Pen Off.

Mi Corazon.

Bros, you guys taught me everything about things that every boys should know. You taught me how to be a man, lessons learnt without any proper instructions. I learn from them, how to love myself. Thank you.

Sisters, you guys were there at moments of which laughter alone couldn't cope with broken hearts. Laughter knows how to die too, but there are things that was and is meant to last. I learn from them, how to love my feelings. Thank you.

Dad, you taught me to be responsible, to stand up for what is right and neglect those of the wrongs. You lifted me up high in the air with your words but with your words too I often crashed to points of surrender. You taught me to be strong, regardless of the endless tribulations in life. You taught me to cherish every moment 'cause you are my living proof that people age, but not memories. The stories of your life inspires me, your name itself means legend to me. You are a walking legend. I learn from you, how to love my life. Thank you.

Mom, you were there when I needed to laugh. You were there the moment I needed someone to blame, you were there the moment I needed something to cling onto, you were there when I fall, you were there behind every of my success. You nourish me good with your love, and with you I don't think any other nutrients are important. Calcium can't never beat you. You're way greater than those biological things. You, are what anomaly stands for. You'd shown to me that what is lost is still there somewhere, in a different shape and form. You are that shape and form. You may not be the first, but you're the first living thing that had ever stole my heart. I smile when you smile, I will only laugh when you laugh. And when you cry, it hurts me the most yet I know that there's not much that I can do now but I can assure you that as I grow older, we'll be living a better life. Better than you could ever imagined. I'll be there when your skin is all wrinkled up, and I will still be there even when your memories had gone berserk. You filled up a hole that I'd left empty for so long. You're that missing piece. I've been wrong for so long and I know that you'll never be able to read this, but believe me; I LOVE YOU. I learn from you, how to love and how to live. Thank you.

Peace, Empathy, Love Off :')

ASABIYAH

I had once put a great interest in political stuffs, but after reading a hadith a while ago that condemns the nature of being overly attached to an organisation, I decided that enough is enough. I know really well who I am and how I really am, and shamefully yes I am a sinner. I don't want to be doing all sins just to get even with the world. We don't really need the world at all. We are either what we are or what we are trying to be, and yes I don't want to be anymore like you. I admit that I had once been fanatic over this bullshit and am willing to bring out the tiniest dirt to withstand any defying ideas, but I had seen friends of mine doing that same exact thing lately and it made me realized of how foolish I once was. He was all fired up when it comes to politics, he's the only one who's right, the party above him is right, but when it comes to corruption and all the mud behind that organisation, he stands behind the lines of "Clean politic is bullshit." So it made me realized that that way of thinking presumes the idea that whoever lies and cheats the best will prevail as long it feeds everyone enough food. That is wrong, because we are literally what we eat, and this continues down the bloodline. I don't want to be living in a place where heavy tanks are as common as a cab, neither do all of us. Please change, everyone. Exaggerating is always an obnoxious thing to do, but I'm not. And deep down I know that everyone will feel this the same as I do.

"Every Muslim is a brother to a Muslim, neither wronging him nor allowing him to be wronged. And if anyone helps his brother in need, Allah will help him in his own need; and if anyone removes a calamity from [another] Muslim, Allah will remove from him some of the calamities of the Day of Resurrection; and if anyone shields [another] Muslim from disgrace, Allah will shield him from the disgrace on the Day of Resurrection." [Al-Bukhari and Muslim, on the authority of `Abd Allah ibn `Umar]


Peace, Empathy, Pen Off.

A Huge Thank You :)

Thousand of millions of thank you's for all that came to my house just now. It was fun seeing all those old friends and new friends mingling with each other, and it was great seeing friends of mine berborak-borak dengan kawan-kawan kakak saya yang kebetulan satu universiti dengan mereka. The world was made huge, so humans can never run out of space to keep their friends :) . My cousin yang semangat datang dari jauh, member-member abang saya yang datang dari jauh, member-member saya yang juga datang dari jauh, semuanya menambahkan lagi seri suasana Hari Raya ke-7 ini. But the biggest joy would be seeing my friends chatting with my mom who was once seorang ustazah untuk hampir kesemua kawan-kawan saya. Semua bersembang tentang macam mana ragam mereka dulu dan macam mana mereka telah membesar. And ohh how we had grown! Sorry sebab saya tak sempat nak berbual dengan semua orang sebab tadi rasanya kawan-kawan saya yang paling ramai hadir jadi saya sibuk nak kena ulang alik melayan semua orang. Haiiihhh we had really grown eh? Semua ada jaminan kerjaya sendiri, tapi saya je yang ambik haluan sebagai seorang guru ek? Haha we would never what'll hit us. I had fun. I had fun. I had fun. Oh i had fun. Sorry kalau ada yang terasa sebab saya tak invite personally melalui sms or phone call, but believe me semua yang datang pun daripada ajakan saya melalui Facebook. Tapi, saya rasa bersalah juga jadi saya mohon jutaan maaf di atas kesilapan saya itu :') . Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri semua, and please keep on being beautiful eyh? Peace, Empathy, Pen Off :')

Selamat Hari Raya everyone :)

"that very morning was the same as every other that we had. we siblings woke up at 9am or so to find out that our tummy was soo in desperate need for food and so off i went to the kitchen looking for something to cure that itch in this tiny esophagus of mine. yet, before even arriving (eh jauhnye dapur?), i noticed that my eldest sister was crying and sobbing so hard with my neighbors beside her. i suddenly knew that that day will turn up unusual than the usual days before. that day will be a scar etched firmly across my chest, that day will be on a crest (it rhymes people!). i asked my sister why but she couldn't bother answering with her sobs hanging all the way through to her lungs and so my neighbor then handed me that day's newspaper. she told me to look at a page and read it well with my other sisters. i read it and oh how i was taken aback by that article. i was barely even breathing and my head was imagining things like it never ever had before. there was written that a car with passengers of 4 was involved in a fatal accident with a lorry. no survivors were reported from the side of the car, but 'luckily' those who were in the lorry survived. i thought that my mom was one of the victim for she had the same car like written in the article but i was wrong because for a moment later my mom was safely home. she told us all of the details and told us to quickly pack our bags and wait at the car. before i went on packing, i glanced back at my eldest sister, her eyes were all red and watery, her cheeks wet from her pouring tears and her voice was not at all there. i knew how she felt back then 'cause i too had had an experience equal of this of her, i too had lost someone before. at that moment, my eyes dripped the firsts drop of tears for the day. i'll cry with you sister. i promise ;') ."

"once every often during the trip my head reminisced all those moments i shared with 'him' whom i had recently lost. i remembered listening to Nirvana though the young age of mine which was barely 10, i remembered wrestling 'him' every time 'he' got home after 'his' tiring weeks of part time job, i remembered playing video games with 'him' until the very final hour of a day and i certainly do remember vividly 'his' smiles and 'his' voice. 'he' was the kind of a rebel who would say "Let's play guitar and be a rockstar one day" or "I'm tired of chores *whilst smiling :)*", i would say that. 'he' was the best friend ever and we were so close though we were separated by an 8 years of age gap. i remembered listening to my mom talking to 'him' "Hang jangan kerja jauh sangat amat, nanti jadi apa apa susah. Bukan nya takmau bagi." and 'he' replied with a sweet smile on 'his' face "Saje nak cari pengalaman ngan duit. Nanti orang selalu balik ummu. Takde ape nye ni." yes i remember that moment."

"the day we lost 'him' fell on Syawal 23rd of 1421 Hijri which was the 18th of January 2001. after the day 'he' went, i remembered that my mom once said that the boss from 'his' part time job called and told her that the boss had offered the staffs somewhat of like a reward before Raya Aidilfitri to those who managed to do their works greatly and 'he' replied to 'his' boss that 'he' would do things great from now on because Aidilfitri is just around the corner and 'he' just can't wait to see the face on my mom when she sees it. after the evaluation, 'he' was the selected one for that reward but yeah some promises were made before it reaches the heart and 'he' was sad/mad that 'he' didn't get 'he' had worked for and the boss told my mom the he was terrified if the ghost of 'him' will haunt him for his wrongdoing but my mom said that those who left would never come back. "those who left would never come back" is a strong word. you wouldn't know how i felt upon losing you, you wouldn't know how it hurts to see your face in Aidilfitri motionless and pale, you wouldn't even know me being there to see you, you wouldn't even know how much i had missed you before that day and most of all you wouldn't even know how much i still miss you until this very day of Aidilfitri the 1st of 1431 Hijri. you wouldn't know how much we missed you. you would never know."


"if i ever have the chance to turn back time, i would definitely go back to the time before u were buried because i didn't kissed you goodbye. i didn't even touched you. oh how i was stupid for letting that opportunity blows twice in my life."

"if i ever have the chance to turn back time, i would definitely go back and take you back to this day where you can see that our family is now doing great. we now have PS2, so you wouldn't have to play games on that old bulky PSone we once had."

"if i ever have the chance to turn back time, i would definitely go back and tell you to never do the part time. i would be willing to say and do anything just to stop you from leaving the house."

"if i ever have the chance to turn back time, i would definitely go back and tell you of my future. we can laugh about the girls i met and talk about the friends we have. we can be in a band bro! we'll play Nirvana's stuffs all day long!"

"if i ever have the chance to turn back time, i would definitely go back and take you to yesterday. yesterday, Syawal the 1st where we had been to your grave and gave respect. and oh you'd missed many huge events in our family. abang didi is married to kak mekna, abang kamarul is married too! and plus, you have a new sister named Raja Fitriyatul Khairiyah. she's a real menace. you should see her, she's beautiful. heh i sounded awfully bad here. i need to stop."

"if i ever have the chance to turn back time, i would definitely go back to our last Aidilfitri together and apologize for all of the bad things i had done. i would say "Selamat hari raya Aidilfitri abang mat. maafkan lah semua salah silap aku sepanjang kita pernah kenal." to you. i will if i can."


"it's kind of ironic of how mom used to scold you so bad because of the incident where you'd made me fell real hard when i was months old *and she did even told you to never ever touch me again!* and how you now seems to be my favourite friend ever. well i'm displeasing everyone now, so it's time to go. Peace, Empathy, Pen Off ;') ."





i copied this article from somewhere but i just couldn't remember the precise whereabout. jadi tolonglah hargai semua ahli keluarga anda. mereka tak boleh dijual beli. Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri kepada semua, mohon maaf zahir dan batin dari saya Raja Muhammad Amiruddin bin Raja Chulan.
*and oh saya dah ingat dah tempat asal artikel ni. it was originally in my head for the remembrance of my late brother Raja Ahmad Ashfihani bin Raja Chulan ;'(*

*rest in peace my beloved brother ;') . Peace, Empathy, Pen Off. *

Family :)

my everything :)

Crossing hearts and dots.

"We live for what He's worth and that's more than you'll know. He died for what He loved and He loved was you."

think!

woman (:

i'd read a pretty interesting hadith recently. i can't remember it whole, but i sure do remember the crucial point of it. here goes.

rasulullah brsabda:"seorang wanita itu ibarat tulang rusuk yang bengkok. jikalau kita brkeras untuk meluruskannya, ia akan patah. kalau kita biarkan ia, ia akan bengkok selamanya."
what i'm trying to stres s is, be gentle ;) .

wallahuallam

WARNING.

okay this next post will be so harsh that i wish all of you would think thousands of time before reading this. i found this stupid maddening article at http://www.wikiislam.com/wiki/Letter_To_Allah . this website is developed by some laknatullah who is trying real hard to destroy muslims all over the world. artikel di bawah kononnya merupakan cubaan mereka untuk berhubung dgn Allah. astaghfirullahhal'azim. tolong mengucap dan beristighfar banyak banyak sebelum baca. Dear Allah;

Assalamu Alaikum; We really do not know how to address you properly. So, we use the same salutation that you taught your most favorite messenger, Muhammad (pbuh). It is also quite difficult for us to know about your whereabouts since you communicated with your Umma via your Minister of Information, Jibril via Muhammad (pbuh) 1400 years ago. Since then, we had never heard from you. This is very sad to us Allah. During these long 1400 years so many things have changed on earth. We are absolutely certain that you are quite aware of these changes. We are sending this e-mail to you hoping that this will find you somewhere in the cyberspace as this space is so huge. Allah, please forgive our Beadabi. We tried to communicate with you through, Zainamaj, Tasbih, Kurbani, Fasting, Zakat, Hajj, Dan Khairat------everything that you told us to do. But alas! All our attempts have been futile. Perhaps you are very busy. Perhaps you have other matters to attend. We waited patiently for thousands of years to receive your 'nek' and 'niamat'. But so far we have not received any. That is why, in desperation we are writing this urgent e-mail to you. Dear Allah, do you have a fax machine? We are sure you have one. Even the lowly creatures of yours can invent a fax machine. So, we are certain that you have a fax and a telephone service too. On your reply please give us your fax and telephone numbers so that we can contact you promptly whenever emergency arises.

Allah, we were not happy where we were born and raised. It was because we had to face grinding poverty, lawlessness, ill health, disease and no future for ourselves as well as for our children. We thought you are testing our Iman through those sufferings. Then we found a way to migrate to the infidel's countries. Allah, we are sure you will forgive us if you know our real intentions of doing this. We wanted to convert all these infidels in to followers of Islam and at the same time we and our children are assured of a better life, at least materially. We also wanted to build a mosque in every suburb of these infidel lands. This is our greatest ambition. Allah, don't you think that it was a clever idea? We could kill many birds in one stone! To our surprise we found strange things in these infidels land. We found that the women here do not wear Hijab. At first we were ashamed to look at these Hijabless damsels. We strictly followed your injunction like this:

[an-Nur 24:30] Say to the believing men that they should lower their gaze and guard their modesty: that will make for greater purity for them: And God is well acquainted with all that they do.

We thought that these women are no better than prostitutes and that they were inviting rape. But we are surprised that a Hijabless woman is rarely raped or molested in the infidel's land! Allah, how is that possible? All our women wear Hijab still then they do not feel safe. Why is it so Allah?

Ya Allah, throughout our lives we have eaten Halal foods. We have never consumed any food forbidden by you. Even in the infidels land we drive hundreds of miles just to buy Halal foods though they may be unhygienic. But we shall rather eat unhygienic Halal food than consume infidel's foods. Allah, for this reason we very rarely visit Macdolad's, Kentucky Fried Chicken, Hungry Jacks, Burger Kings ….……. and in other infidel fast food joints. We are very proud not to eat in these outlets even though they are impeccably, clean, hygienic and pleasant. We are very proud to uphold your decrees. Allah do you know why? It is because you said that the infidels are unclean. See for yourself, Allah!

[at-Taubah 9:28] O ye who believe! Truly the Pagans are unclean; so let them not, after this year of theirs, approach the Sacred Mosque. And if ye fear poverty, soon will God enrich you, if He wills, out of His bounty, for God is All-knowing, All-wise.

Allah, we have absolute faith in your words. When infidels invite us in their homes for a party we pretend to be broad minded; but when we go to these parties we carefully search foods for the telltale sign of Haramness in them. Most of the time we only drink fruit juices and eat none of the foods. We tell our hosts that we are not hungry or that we are sick.. Allah, don’t you think that it is a great sacrifice on our part just to honor your divine decrees? If by mistake we did the terrible act of consuming Haram food, please forgive us for this sin. After all, such accidental errors are forgiving to you; isn't it. See Allah what you wrote in your Quran!

[al-Baqarah 2:173] He hath only forbidden you dead meat, and blood, and the flesh of swine, and that on which any other name hath been invoked besides that of God. But if one is forced by necessity, without willful disobedience, nor transgressing due limits,- then is he guiltless. For God is Oft-forgiving Most Merciful.

But Allah, the thing that really puzzles us is that why are these Haramkhors (Haram eaters) seem to enjoy excellent health; whereas many of us even after eating the Halal foods throughout our lives seem not to have that great health. After all, we thought that the best way for health, vitality and longevity is through the Halal way. How come the infidels are better off with the Haram way? Dear Allah, you told us that as followers of the best religion, we are the best people on earth. For confirmation we just need to look at your following words:

[Al-Imran 3:110] Ye are the best of peoples, evolved for mankind, enjoining what is right, forbidding what is wrong, and believing in God. If only the People of the Book had faith, it were best for them: among them are some who have faith, but most of them are perverted transgressors.

[Al-Imran 3:85] If anyone desires a religion other than Islam (submission to God), never will it be accepted of him; and in the Hereafter He will be in the ranks of those who have lost (All spiritual good).

Allah, to us it meant that we are the best in every respect. But to our surprise we find that almost all the achievements of today are by the infidels and the kafirs. After you stopped talking to us through your messenger, so many things have changed that we do not have the space to write details in this short e-mail. Allah, why is it that we do not have a radio connection with you whereas these infidels have connected the entire globe electronically. How is it that these infidels are about to set foot on another planet created by you whereas we, the true followers of yours could not even trace your residing place? Allah, why is it that you did not give enough capability to your true followers to achieve these incredible achievements of the infidels? Another matter that is very perplexing to us is the field of medicine.

All the modern life saving drugs and medical inventions like penicillin, anti-biotic, x-ray, chemotherapy, CT-scan, ultrasound, mammography …… etc have been invented by the infidels. We hate to say this. But Allah, we have no choice. Our life totally depends on these infidels. Why is it so Allah? Allah, please give us at least the ability to save our own lives ourselves when we fall sick. Allah, it really seems that you are gradually abandoning us. Allah please tell us what has gone wrong with us.

To our knowledge we have never committed any Gunah at all. In fact, our other compatriots in your Islamic paradises are implementing pure and absolute Islam by following your prescriptions to the letter. Still then you are not happy with them You have given them all sorts of immeasurable sufferings and a series of natural disasters. We thought that you reserve the natural disasters like earthquakes, floods, famines, droughts etc. for the infidels and kafirs. Allah, is it fair that you make your believers suffer so much and let the infidels/kafirs go Scot free? Dear Allah, our members have become very frustrated. Every day we are facing the attacks from the secularists/freethinkers. We thought that Internet (your gift to mankind) will be on our side. We spent huge sums of money to develop countless sites dedicated to you. We thought that Internet shall be our weapon through which we shall convert every one on this planet to Islam. We thought that we shall decimate all secularists/freethinkers through our brilliant essays/discussions/fatwas/promises of eternal life/heaven and what not. We recycled most of these writings in almost all our sites. Our members are too busy following your prescribed rituals like five times prayers a day, fasting, Hajj, implementing Quran at home and outside. That is why they do not have enough time to produce new and original articles. Allah, what is wrong in recycling and repeating the same essays again and again and again in all our sites? After all, your writings are mostly repetitive too. Many times the secularists/freethinkers had the audacity to question the many repetition of verses in your Holy book. We silence them by saying that Allah repeats for greater understanding and explanation. Allah, we are just following that which you have done. Repeat. Repeat. Repeat. Cut and paste. Cut and paste. Cut and paste. We have no shortage of funds to create new web sites.

Money is pouring in from the Islamic paradises. We will do more and more cut and paste until all Islamic brother sites look alike just like the verses in your Quran. The only thing that is lacking in us is that we do not have the brainpower to silence the secularists and freethinkers. That is why we need to do a lot of homework. We spend nights and days doing our homework. In fact, we have so much of homework to do that the handful of brains that we have are always busy at home and rarely do outside work. See how smart and clever are we! The secularists and the freethinkers never do their homework. That is why we always chide them and lecture on them on how to compose essays.

We feel very proud in our faith when we do this. But then, this Internet battle is also looks like going to be won by the secularists/freethinkers/infidels. The Internet has really backfired on us, Allah. Every other day we find that secularists/freethinkers bring in new converts and original writings which your fellow followers find very difficult to confront. It is a very shameful thing for us when we find that many of these convert secularists were actually die hard followers of yours at a certain point in their lives. If you want to know more about them we can send their e-mail addresses and the blasphemous articles that they dared to propagate. Allah, is it possible that you made them to change their heart about you? We base it from your countless verses dealing with pre-ordination. In case you have forgotten, we are quoting a few here:

[Yunus 10:100] No soul can believe, except by the will of God, and He will place doubt (or obscurity) on those who will not understand.

[al-Fatir 35:8] Is he, then, to whom the evil of his conduct is made alluring, so that he looks upon it as good, (equal to one who is rightly guided)? For God leaves to stray whom He wills, and guides whom He wills. So let not thy soul go out in (vainly) sighing after them: for God knows well all that they do!

[al-An`am 6:125] Those whom God (in His plan) willeth to guide,- He openeth their breast to Islam; those whom He willeth to leave straying,- He maketh their breast close and constricted, as if they had to climb up to the skies: thus doth God (heap) the penalty on those who refuse to believe.

Dear Allah, would you please confirm this fear of ours in your return e-mail. Gostaki maaf. If this be confirmed by you then we better not waste our time on these secularist/infidel writers. This is your wish. So, be it.

Dear Allah it really frustrates us when we find that the Internet battle is slowly but surely being won by the infidels/freethinkers. To make situation worse, many of these kafirs writers use pseudo names and hide their real identities and physical whereabouts. Allah, please do not misunderstand us. We did try our utmost to unveil these hidden enemies of Islam. We have declared them apostates and we have waged Jihad against them. We have never forgotten your decrees on these apostates. As a test of proficiency of your Holy Scripture we quote from your Holy Quran:

[an-Nisa' 4:137] Those who believe, then reject faith, then believe (again) and (again) reject faith, and go on increasing in unbelief,- God will not forgive them nor guide them nor guide them on the way.

[an-Nahl 16:106] Any one who, after accepting faith in God, utters Unbelief,- except under compulsion, his heart remaining firm in Faith - but such as open their breast to Unbelief, on them is Wrath from God, and theirs will be a dreadful Penalty.

[ash-Shura 42:16] But those who dispute concerning God after He has been accepted,- futile is their dispute in the Sight of their Lord: on them will be a Penalty terrible.

Allah, we have sent plenty of hate/warning/threat mails to these kafirs/apostates. Some of our warning mails even contained threats of beheading them as per your instruction and as per your dearest messenger's practices. But these apostates do not care. They have become more dangerous than Salman Rushdie and Taslima Nasreen. Allah, please help us to find these apostates. You have declared that you are all knower. Allah, we are sure that you have not forgotten similar decrees of yours which adore virtually every page of the Holy Quran. Allah, do you have a tape recorder? Please playback your messages of 1400 years ago. Dear Allah, we know in the following verses that you asked us not to raise questions about faith.

[al-Ma'idah 5:101] O ye who believe! Ask not questions about things which, if made plain to you, may cause you trouble. But if ye ask about things when the Qur'an is being revealed, they will be made plain to you, God will forgive those: for God is Oft-forgiving, Most Forbearing.

[al-Ma'idah 5:102] Some people before you did ask such questions, and on that account lost their faith.

Allah, how funny is it that if we ask any questions about Islam then we may end up becoming an unbeliever! Now we understand why you have imposed terrible punishments for those who ask questions like the secularists/freethinkers. Allah, we are really very curious to know if you had recorded your messages in a tape recorder or CD or DVD so that there would have been no confusion about your authentic messages? Please Allah forgive us for inquiring such thing. Ya Allah, we need your intervention very urgently. Please tell us the physical whereabouts of these new Salman Rushdies and Taslima Nasreens. They are multiplying every day. After we receive your e-mail, we shall forward this information to your favourite annihilators, the Talibans and other Islamic Jihadis group who will take care of them. We have tried our best to defeat these foes of Islam intellectually, but we could not. Now we have no choice but to eliminate them physically. After all, that is how you had always won, isn't it? Allah, remember the genocide in Bangladesh, Iran, Afghanistan, Sudan? Allah, isn't this the only language in your scripture to deal with the infidels/secularists/freethinkers? Look Allah, what you wrote in your Pak Kalam

[al-Baqarah 2:193] And fight them on until there is no more Tumult or oppression, and there prevail justice and faith in God; but if they cease, Let there be no hostility except to those who practise oppression.

[al-Ma'idah 5:33] The punishment of those who wage war against God and His Apostle, and strive with might and main for mischief through the land is: execution, or crucifixion, or the cutting off of hands and feet from opposite sides, or exile from the land: that is their disgrace in this world, and a heavy punishment is theirs in the Hereafter;

[Muhammad 47:4] Therefore, when ye meet the Unbelievers (in fight), smite at their necks; At length, when ye have thoroughly subdued them, bind a bond firmly (on them): thereafter (is the time for) either generosity or ransom: Until the war lays down its burdens. Thus (are ye commanded): but if it had been God's Will, He could certainly have exacted retribution from them (Himself); but (He lets you fight) in order to test you, some with others. But those who are slain in the Way of God,- He will never let their deeds be lost.

Dear Allah, as we said before, we have many things to write to you. If only you could read our language and respond!

With the greatest devotion. Your Slave. Hal-Lum-Wena

P.S. For safety reasons from the kafirs we also used a cryptic name just like you put many cryptic messages in your Holy Book (like Alif-Lam-Mim, Alif-Lam-Mim-Sad, Ta-Ha, Ta-Sin-Mim, Ha-Mim just to name a few). Allah, we are sure you will be able to decipher it.

Assalamualaikum.

okay. time for some really serious scribbling. friends of mine see me as a quiet boy who usually laughs the loudest at chances. and yah i tend to do stupid jokes. but please please. remember this, mak saya ustazah, saya bukan orang yang akan biar nama mak saya hanyut macam tu. saya dah buat terlampau banyak research berkaitan agama KESAYANGAN saya, ISLAM! semua benda yang saya dapat, memang agak memberangsangkan. some things are too harsh to handle. i really want to share, but not through blogging. you should really understand what i'm trying to stress here, BLOGGING IS NEVER SAFE.

i am very touched by two of my favourite stories about Prrophet Muhammad (pbuh),
1: baginda pernah berdoa memohon tiga perkara dari ALLAH swt, dua diterima dan satu ditolak. saya lupa (saya bukan jenis copy paste, saya bercerita dengan menaip sendiri) dua yang diterima tetapi yang ditolak itu mmbuatkan Nabi kita sedih dan salah seorang para sahabat perasan hal ini, dia bertanya kepada Rasullullah, apa yang ditolak, baginda menjawab, "Aku berdoa yang ummat ku akan bersatu sehingga ke akhir zaman tetapi ditolak." sahabat turut menangis dan bertanya bagaimana islam hendak bersatu kalau begitu? Rasullullah menjawab, barangsiapa yang mengucap dua kalimah syahadah dan beriman dengannya, peluklah dia seperti saudara kandungmu sendiri.

2: pada akhir hayat Rasullullah, beliau meminta pada malaikat jibril supaya dia boleh menanggung segala kesakitan sakratulmaut ummat nya, tetapi ditolak. hingga ke hujung nafasnya, beliau berulang kali menyebut "ummati, ummati, ummati. . " sehingga hilang nyawa di jasad. Ummati bermaksud ummatku.

mereka yang mengenali saya dengan rapat akan sedar yang saya selalu hidup dalam serabut dan masalah sebab terlampau fikirkan tentang orang lain, tetapi percayelah, kalau anda semua tahu apa yang saya tahu setakat ni, anda juga akan berbuat demikian.!


saya ingin berkongsi semua yang saya tahu tentang agama saya, agama anda, agama kita, agama manusia, agama yang datangnya dari ALLAH, tetapi saya risau anda akan pandang saya seperti seseorang yang cakap tanpa otak. tetapi, saya berfikir lebih dalam tentang isu ini daripada anda memikirkan masalah kehidupan anda.



ermmm try google nama ni jahbulon , dah? and try this jabulani.
call me stupid or a fag or whatever, but kalau yang ini pon saya akan dikutuk oleh anda, bagaimana dgn crita crita saya yang lain? sorry for wasting your time, go carry on with your fb and stuffs.

knowledge is power.

okay time for some serious scribbling. saya menulis dengan hasrat ingin berkongsi. tiada lebih dan kurang dari itu.

Sabda Rasullullah yang paling hebat dari pendapat kosong saya, "Aku tinggalkan dua perkara yang kamu tidak sesat selamanya, Al-Quran dan As-Sunnah." Al-Quran merupakan 'kata kata' Allah yang turun kepada Nabi Muhammad secara berkala (ayat demi ayat dari surah surah yang berasingan) . Al-Quran dan alam semesta merupakan ciptaan Allah, Rabb (pengatur) kita yang agung, dan Rabb kita telah mengatur kita supaya menjadi khalifah (pemimpin) di muka bumi.

*Kebesaran Al-Quran dinyatakan melalui sebuah cerita di mana gunung merekah dan hancur apabila diletakkan Al-Quran di atasnya. Manusia sebagai khalifah dicipta untuk memerintah dengan Al-Quran. Subhanallah.*
Seperti juga setiap pekrja yang baru diterima memerlukan basic knowledge, begitu juga manusia.
"Aku tinggalkan dua perkara yang kamu tidak sesat selamanya, Al-Quran dan As-Sunnah."


berikut merupakan jumlah perkataan tertentu di dalam AL-Quran.
Al-Dunya / Al-Akhirah = 115 / 115
Al-Malaikah / Al_Syateen = 88 / 88
Al-Hayat / Al-Maut = 145 / 145
Al-Rajul (Lelaki) / Al-Mara (Perempuan) = 24 / 24
Al-Shahr (Bulan) / Al-Yaum (Hari) = 12 / 365
Al-Bahar (Laut) / Al-Bar (Darat) = 32 / 13

Jika kita mencampurkan jumlah perkataan yang membawa maksud laut dan darat jumlahnya ialah 45 (32+13 = 45).
Jika dibuat kira-kira mudah :
Laut 32/45 X 100 = 71.111%
Darat 13/45 X 100 = 28.889%


inilah basic guidance kepada kita para khalifah. :) . i will continue posting this sort of stuffs later on :) .

skeptic or naive?

if the word 'if' can be bought, nothing will ever exists or succeed in this pathetic worthless world. All of us will dream and won't stop doing so, is that life? And when you're fed with something new, you flinched and pushed aside all of the new and blurry ideas in your mouth. "We flourish, spreading like a disease. Our goal is to eat everything we ever see." We're the breed who believes that it is the best to blend in and mingle with everyone rather than to strive out and reach for something bigger than communication, i think like KNOWLEDGE? without knowledge, communicating is like feeding corn flakes to a tiger. You can try, and risk losing one of your hands, or both, or worst still, your life? everything is awful when we have knowledge on our side, because the world as once said by our beloved Prophet Muhammad, "The world is similar to an old lady who seduces everyone she sees." See? Truth is ugly, no matter from what angle. But Islam, a forever true and true religion is never ugly. Islam as indicated in our holy Al-Quran, is not a religion, but a way of life. It is bigger than a religion. It is bigger than any ranks or positions, it is the words of Allah THE ALMIGHTY which serves as an everlasting reminder for fellow humans on ways to go through our everyday life. Islam is best described as something bigger than just a way of life, Islam is the infinite answer for every single doubt in our hearts.




*a picture of a big print of Al-Quran.*


Q; betul ke paderi2 Jesuit, Bishop pernah baca AL-QURAN dan mereka mnghafalnya? Saya pernah dengar yang gereja mengkajinya….. tapi sama ke macam orang islam mengkaji ?… tak mungkin sama…betul tak?

A; pertama kali kami berkenalan dgn Al-Quran selepas Nabi Muhammad diambil tuhannya, dan kami membaca dgn telinga, selepas Salahudin mati, kami membaca dengan mata,lidah,hidung,tangan,kaki dan kulit…. kami buka halaman pertama, kami baca kemudian kami datang kepada dunia dan hasilkannya.. kemudian kami buka halaman kedua, kami baca.. kemudian kami berkata “oh…macam ni rupanya kehidupan manusia diciptakan tuhan…… kita perlu lakukan sesuatu”.. kami datang kepada dunia dan hasilkanya.. kemudian kami buka halaman ketiga, kami baca… kemudian kami berkata “ alamak…tuhan buat begini pulak!!… kita tak boleh biarkan, kita mesti buat sesuatu” kami datang kepada dunia dan hasilkanya.. dan begitulah sehingga halaman terakhir….. dan siapakah kamu org islam pada hari ini? kamu melihat dunia yg kami hasilkan tadi , kemudian kamu datang kepada al-quran, kemudian kamu berkata “ apa ayat yg aku nak guna dan tampal bila aku berhujah di depan orang nanti?…ayat ni boleh la” kamu datang kepada dunia kemudian berkata “lihat dunia telah berlaku seperti ini….seperti itu,cuba rujuk ayat ini,,,,ayat itu…hadis ini…..hadis itu…..” kemudian kamu dgn bangga berkata “ inilah janji tuhan yang ayat al-quran dijamin tidak akan berubah” padahal kami sengaja membiarkan tulisan tulisan pada kertas itu kekal, kemudian kami berpura-pura hendak mengubah tulisan dan berpura-pura gagal supaya kamu berkata “inilah janji tuhan yang ayat al-quran dijamin tidak akan berubah” sungguh bijaksana orang islam…. janji tuhan disangkanya tulisan-tulisan…. Membuatkan raja mereka berkuasa ke atas agama dan adat sahaja telah menyebabkan rakyatnya berharap pada dakwat dan pena… dan hari ini mereka berlaga, dakwat siapa lagi pekat…..pena siapa lagi berkilat teramat besarlah jasa zaman penjajahan kepada tuannya..yang teramat mulia Paus…

Q; sedap je pak cik cakap…..kalau org2 pak cik x ubah tulisan pun, org2 kami al-hafiz n al-hafizah sememangya dah hafal penuhya AL-QURAN dan terjemahanya….. yg ni pun bukan janji TUHAN ke?

A; hafalan mereka hanyalah tulisan2….. apabila kamu bertanya tentang AL-QURAN kepada mereka….. Ingatan mereka akan kembali menjadi tulisan semula…. maafkn saya….tapi kalau kamu mahu lihat kebenaranya…pergilah uji mereka

Q; tadi pak cik cakap membaca AL-QURAN selepas Salahudin mati (wafat)… gaya pak cik cakap “BERKENALAN DGN AL-QURAN selepas Nabi MUHAMAD DI AMBIL TUHANNYA” tu… seolah2 org pak cik sangat hampir dengan peristiwa itu.. tak faham la saya…

A; sangat2 lah sukar untuk mengetahui rahsia AL-QURAN tanpa Nabi MUHAMAD, kami sempat belajar dengan memerhatikan sahabat-sahabatnya sahaja, mereka begitu sibuk menawan dunia… hampir suku bumi di bawah keamanan Islam. waktu itu, kami masih di padang pasir, tapi hampir tiada tanah lagi untuk kami berdiri, kerana terlalu sibuk melebarkan empayar, mereka telah cuai… kami membawa diri sehelai sepinggang meninggalkan tanah yang kami cintai lalu kami menemui suatu bumi yang tidak pernah kami bayangkan sebelum ini, bumi yang subur dengan tumbuhan, sungai yg mengalir deras dan sangat sejuk dan ada benda putih turun dari langit (salji). kami menemui suatu kaum yg sama kulit dan wajahnya seakan kami, dan kami spt pernah lihat dulu, tapi kami lupa…. dan alangkah terkejutnya kami kaum itu menyembah Nabi Isa !!!….. ya.. Nabi Isa yg kami bunuh dahulu !!!




*these Q&As are of a malaysian and a bishop in new york. our fellow malaysian is staying there with his uncle and accidentally met his neighbour(the bishop) and started talking about Islam and stuffs. Turned out the bishop knows almost everything about Islam. The original conversations are in english, but are translated for better understanding for all of us. for more info, check on the link i posted previously :) .

Korang Islam eh? Korang mengucap dua kalimah syahadah eh?

http://www.dinar-emas.com/vatican.html tolong bukak link ni dan baca sampai habis. ketepikan lah rasa ego ke apa semua tu, bukak link ni sekejap dan habiskan baca. Islam itu segala-galanya bagi ummatnya. Kalau tak setuju, abaikan link ni. Aku bukan promo direct selling atau MLM, aku nak kongsi sesuatu tentang dunia yang sering dipuja dan disembah ni. Make your choice. Aku tak rugi ape ape, korang pon same. Sebarkanlah kalau sudi.